News

I am getting better, I hope I will. But the news I've just received is depressing me. Another break up. =(

It was never expected for them, they look so sweet with each other and been together for such a long time. It makes me realize that it is not about TIME, we never know whether a couple can last till the end or not except themselves. Who says that the bird lovers who have been together for 10years cannot end with breaking up? and who says that those who have coupled for less than a year or even months cannot get married?

She was the one who gave me comfort during my worst period and I never want her to have the same situation like me. Too many break ups for this year around me, too many sad stories, too many scars and too many tears. Even a friend who hasn't experience love told me that all the things she sees and listens are discouraging her. Sorry girl, but do believe in Love. It makes us (at least for me) to grow and learn many lessons. I want to choose to believe that there are still hope and faith in love like those I've seen around me.

Deep inside I still hope the two can solve those problems and reunite. I know I'm just an outsider and know nothing about their problems. But what I see is the two who loves each other being torn apart by views and external factors. Maybe it is just my little wish.

Wasting my time all the day just sleeping.>.<..the headache is getting better after popping in the commonest pill-Panadol..or should I say Paracetamol as a future pharmacist?>.<

Girl, I hope you can stay strong. Like what you've told me, it is okay to fall and be sad but make sure that you stand and be alive after that. I do need that as well. <3

For those who are reading this, appreciate the one you have and cherish him/her. For those who are under crisis, talk to the one and hopefully solve the problems together. For those who had just lost their directions (like me?), STAY STRONG always. Leaf needs to be strong too.=/

Sorrow

Darn it...I feel like crying now...T.T

Why am I so stupid to feel that hurts till now..=(

Sorry for those who hope I'll be stronger.Sorry for myself too..

New semester begins

It is my second week of semester 5 in IMU. I feel down today, losing energy and passion to do things especially in revision. I’m very impress of those friends who can keep up their spirit to do the pre-reading and post-reading for every lectures. I’m accumulating even it is only week 2. Sounds bad..>.<

Don’t feel like doing anything today. All the words that go into brain never stay. For the first time since I came back here, I feel emo. I have tried to be more ‘smiley” and it worked for past week. Today the spell isn’t working on me and I just hope this feeling will fade when I wake up tomorrow. There are still bunch of things to do.>.<

Did promise myself that this should be a cheerful blog since my Chinese blog is much more emo. Trying to find a balance and find back myself.  There are still bigger things outside the world and I know that I have many great friends around me who are willing to hold me when I drown into sorrow.

We were mentally being stressed up by those briefings with our dean and coordinator. At least I was. They repetitively brought up the issues of pass marks and CMA (cumulative average mark).  They stressed us up reminded us that our life will be very hard in Glasgow if we do not put more effort in academic now. The more depressing one was we might need to re-take our IELTS if new policy is being enforced. Praying hard that we don’t need to go through it again.>.<

I’m writing here instead of revising my lectures. Not in the mood today for everything. Wanted to throw myself to bed but was not able to fall asleep just now.

Please, I’m hoping that my menstrual cramp won’t get worst.

And I’m hoping that tomorrow my world shines brighter.

p/s:Thanks to those who lend me their ears and gave me comfort during my worst time. *hugs*