This post would be an aggressive one.
Despite the need to pack my luggage and belongings, settling all the problems, I am sitting in front laptop in a dimmed room writing this post.
I was waiting for placement to hospital for 3 months in past and had got the long-waited letter from government this Monday (while most of my friends received it earlier), I dislike hate the feeling of always waiting anxiously for something uncertain since we were informed via letter regarding on the state we were placed to.
Maybe Monday blue has its rules,I got my letter that day and knew where am I posted to.Tada Wtf!I am being sent to Sabah. The upset feeling of me alone being sent to a place so far from home "successfully" eaten me up.=(. I was more in shocked than upset actually. With news around,I know that many friends got their own choice of state except for a few. Among the few who didn't get their own choices of state, 2 are being posted to East Malaysia. How lucky we are (sarcastically..=X).
Practical issues soon kept me really busy for the past few days. Texts and calls from friends consoling me and wishing me lucks seemed to comfort me a bit. However, when I am the one settling all the practical issues which I can think of, from accommodation (the most important one), transportation (the 2nd most), flight, itinerary, etc, no matter how positive I ask myself to be, I feel upset and become more impatience. Those who did not get post to East Malaysia can hardly know how challenging difficult it is.
Just imagine that you will only know which hospital you are posted to when you do your lapor diri in Sarawak, how could one possibly settle accommodation before hand? How about transportation?Seriously, what kind of policy is that?!Some officers in other states willingly answer to those who called/emailed to confirm the hospital on duty they've been posted to but this failed to persuade the officer in Sarawak. Still being "responsible" to their job by abiding to policies. They are not considerable at all.Grrhh....
I must be grateful that at least I get to know which hospital before hand so that I can arrange for my flights and accommodation there. Sandakan is the place where i will be spending 1 year. The hospital which I am going to report soon is Hospital Duchess of Kent, quite a glamorous name for me.
I started with accommodation, searching net around opening multiple tabs (I am still doing it now) just to check out whether there are available rooms for rent. In the end ended with nothing and insomnia. Thanks to Chun Yuan, I settled my accommodation the next day. You really had do me a super duper big favour. Sincerely appreciate the help you've offered.
So, next->transportation. Got my flight booked on tuesday night, spent hours till midnight just to ensure I got every details filled up correctly. (I felt tension when booking flight alone for others, parents are going with me by the way).
Imagine travelling without cars while you need to go malls to buy essentials (water bucket, study desk and etc etc)??At the same time need to start working in hospital, figuring out where are the locations for banks, restaurants and etc). Honestly I am not sure how would I do all these without a CAR.So, stop grumbling about travelling in unfamiliar places while you still have a car to drive on. (apologize for being aggressive.)
Seniors told me that many of them shipped their cars there, others bought a new one there. I opted for buying second-hand car initially with the thought of I am there for only 1 year and therefore it's easier just to have something simple and cheaper. Later on the decision of getting a new car instead of second-hand one is made after consideration. Here comes the problem, family arguments, feelings of being left alone to deal with all the matters deepens. I am not being fussy, I am just communicating with solid facts that how troublesome and how limited time I have.Till now, I feel annoyed and fed up.Am I too demanding?Or you are not supportive at all??=(
3days left to settle the remaining issues. All kind of things which I will only think of when I am the one posted there. Dealing with banks, drove to different branches for 3 times just to get a signature, the sudden thought of "I need to get a braodband" since no internet access in the room I've booked, bla bla bla and etc....really challenged me and making me annoying.
I believe, I will feel much better once I've settled down there. The positive mind says:"Take it as a learning experience.". Salute to those who travelled and settled down alone.
When I get to know that 2 friends have got the same hospital, I can't avoid to feel slightly upset. With the thought that "How unfair it is, to get the hospital so near to home". Feeling guilty to have this feeling but feels alone when the thought of going so far away. Still need some time to adjust my mindset and hopefully I will accept it with open heart in few months time.
Problems still unsolved, and I couldn't do anything for now.=(. To those who get placement in west Malaysia, if you have grouches on the problems you're facing, maybe you will feel better by thinking how hard challenging it is to get posted to East Malaysia.
Thinking that I would be in Sandakan already next week. Can't deny that I am scared and worry. Just hope it will turn out to be good.
