Another moment of thought

As time flies,
I know,
Those words were never meant to be true.

As we live, I know,
Promises are always easier to be broken than to be made.
I have nothing to hold on,
And shouldn’t have seen any glimpse of hope since long time ago.
My stupidity and ignorance,
Only prove that I’m idiot once again.

I’m surprise,
But I should have expected.
All the words, they mean nothing.
To my annoyed,
It still hurts.
Hurts.

Of randomness

Time flies, it's already been a MONTH since my arrival to Glasgow. I've abandoned my blog again. Well, guess you guys already used to me.=P

Expected hectic timetable, almost 9am-5pm everyday was(and is still) killing me. It's not because of the trouble or reluctant to wake up early from bed, it is the afternoon super sleepy time during lectures that kill me. I usually manage to focus for the first lecture from 1pm and then mind will automatically shuts down slowly till a stage that I can't absorb any spoken words from the lecturer.>.<...It even happened to me that I wanted to jot down some extra info which in the end I can't recognize my own hand writing. >.<

Well, still I’ve survived through for a month! Tried to steal some time to chill out and relax with my dear friends. Friends did help a lot here as they are the only one here aside from our family members which are far away from us now. I’ve made my habit to constantly take photos of every bits of life here even though it’s may be just a simple dish I’ve cooked as I know the other end of world are watching and grabbing images of my life here by viewing my photos. Don’t misunderstand me, I’m referring to my family. =)

Still, issues and conflicts appeared. I’ve tried to tolerate as no one is the same. With us with different living habits and particular demands for specific things in daily life, I need to learn more and be more patience. Sadly that I still lost control sometimes and the emotion fell apart, that feeling was not good at all being that I’ve tried to be polite and tolerable. =S. It’s a challenge for me. How I wish we are living in conflicts-free society even though it’s just a dream. Still need to come back to reality.

I should be studying right now and not blogging here.>.<. Another class test in 1 week’s time! Oh God just wish all of us can pass through this semester. Our first Pharmacy Practice test was a total FAILURE. =(. I’ve failed terribly unexpectedly honestly. A minor mistake can cause us to fail straight away. Thinking on the other way, this is good to REMIND us to check EVERYTHING PRECISELY and do not just ASSUME things are correct. This is what we will face in real practice. Yet the marks were depressing. >.<

I’ve been shifted to another flat 2 weeks ago. Only 4 of us staying in an isolated flat now. The feeling is not great. Being away from others with strangers coming in and out sometimes. >.< The new unit is quite identical to our previous one, at least it does for my room. Except for the SHOWER ROOM, I really hate dislike our new shower room. The shower knob is SUPER hard to be tuned off. My hands will always turn red because of trying hard to turn it off till no water drips but sometimes it is really annoying me that I just gave up. =S.

I’m starting my grumbles and better stop here. Well, life still goes on and I need to be more motivated here. Perhaps I need to learn to tolerate as well? My limit is being frequently challenged nowadays. =(

Till here then. Take care to my friends in Malaysia. I’m looking forward to meet you in September. You know who you are. =)  <3

wish I could be tougher..sorry to freak you guys out with this picture.

A snap taken at Edinburgh. With Ying Sin and Qian Hui.Love the moments when we are together =)

Another favourite picture.With the middle one changed to Kai Chi-the always blur but lovely girl =)

Guess this one looks better. This was taken 2 weeks before. With no stress that time. >.<


p/s:Looking forward for our unplanned trip for coming sem break! (Gosh I should really go study now >.<)

Far Away from Home

From KLIA to London:11.40pm till 5.50am in UK, from London Hethrow Airport to Glasgow:10.00am till 11.30am. This was my first time travelling in such a long time and journey to a new place.

The journey wasn't that tiring and tension as I've expected, perhaps it was because we were travelled in group and there were officers leading us to the straight point. If it's the other way I would definitely be more nervous while passing by those check points.

It was a brand new and exciting experience for me to be able to have chance to enter business class lounge. Free food, drinks, wines and free shower as well!We spent a couple of hours inside trying new stuffs as though as we never been there (indeed we weren't!)

Reached Glasgow at 11.30am and saw some familiar faces and greetings from friends who came here before us. We took van back to our hostel which name is James Blyth Court and unload our luggage. The other group of friends have got their flight delayed in Dubai and therefore we had some time to settle in.

Before I came, I know that summer in Glasgow is not the typical summer which we'll imagine, I thought it will be like in Genting with 16-17 degree Celsius. While I am definitely WRONG!It was only 10 degree Celsius here!with occasional drizzles and wind blows.>.<..it's coooooold for me. Wondering how am I going to dress up for coming winter.=S. All the friends here said we will soon get used to it. (Hopefully!)

Still feeling ok, except the flu which started yesterday night.=S. Please don't get worst.News from home which pull my heart down, feeling worried and helpless here. All I could do it to pray for the one which is far away from me now, hope you'll get well soon and be fine. =S =S

I feel like I'm writing in a messy and unstructured way. All things just jumbled in my mind and I just write out what I could recall. Feeling lazy to upload photos here since I've already uploaded on fb.

It is both exciting and tiring week in Glasgow for me. I'm excited to be in a new place with magnificent scenery and architecture but still I'm not used to all the needed walk to either the city or just to get groceries. Had done a lot of walking in the past two days until I can't feel my feet.>.<. I believe that I'll soon get used to it. 15minutes walk to city with occasional drizzles and strong wind blow will soon be easy for me.(Hopefully! >.<)

The most unusual thing for me is not the weather. It is the length of day that mess up my circadian rhythm. The sky is still bright like 4pm in Malaysia while it's actually 8pm already. Sun only sets at 10pm and rises at 3-4am. I really need to get use to this as I keep having thoughts that it's still early while looking outside the window while it's actually late.>.<

That's all for this post. Exhausted. Good night/morning/afternoon to everyone who reads this.=)

Leaving

Last post before leaving Malaysia , before  leaving my beloved hometown-Kuantan and my home sweet home. Here I come Glasgow!

Honestly I am not that homesick before departure as others,  kinda looking forward to the brand new life there. Always remind myself that this is a rare opportunity for me to fly to another country with diverse difference compare to Malaysia.

Finally finished packing my luggage, was annoyed and got frustrated from packing and repacking for Many times due to the luggage limit. Pathetic 20kg. =(. Cracked my head for throwing transferring out many stuff. How nice for others who have 40kg allowance. In the end, my luggage is….still Overweight!!!=.=…gave up in reducing load. Will see how much the airport will charge me, an alternative solution is to post those extra weights by courier service. (It’s still expensive even by postage >.<)

Gonna miss my family, my warm bed, my besties and friends.  Gonna miss Malaysian food as well even though I can’t stand the spiciness. =P

Being in a new environment with different cultural backgrounds and weather is going to be new challenge for me. May God bless all of us to pass through our academic and able to blend in well later.  Knowing that my coming semester will be super hectic and there will be a huge gap in terms of syllabus compare to what we’ve learnt in IMU,  I need to have stronger determination in order to be more self-disciplined and motivated.  My grades have been “deteriorating” from time to time. =S

Being out there means I get to experience the four seasons and “moody” weather. Hopefully those coming rainy days wouldn’t put me into down and emotional state. (Seasonal affective disorder? =X)

A year can change a lot of things i.e. perspectives, thinking, habits, and senses.  A year can also make many things stronger i.e.  the bonds between family and friends, the dependence and maybe my own faith. I will definitely feel different if I read this back after some time. Promise myself to update more often from now onwards.

Going to depart at early morning later (5 more hours to go), maybe I will just stay awake to “reminiscent” the scent and the warmth of my home. (Sounds crazy)

Till here then. I will MISS all of you (you know who you are =) ). *hugs*

Bad Day

Nothing much to say...just want to express...

Time flies, yet scars fossilized..and what else left?

I failed in this topic...

=(

Flying...

I have to admit that I have a boring life, hence lead to this boring blog and boring post.=.=’’..

Not much is happening during my last semester break in Malaysia. Been travelling kuantan-kl for many times, for moving out from vista, for kem BTN and for VISA application.  Basically I have spent my holiday doing nothing except settling some documents of visa and jpa and doing the super expensive medical checkup. >.< Well I shall be grateful that I’m healthy.

Less than 1 month to fly, what else do to now? Guess I’m too boring till I’m spending time here writing all these.

-Briefing with travel agent-Mr Hira-Done before applying VISA, may have another one soon.

-Briefing with JPA-Not yet, recently been told by friends that we would only have it 2 or 3 days before flying!!>.<

-Medical check up-Done

-VISA application-in progress, praying that we would able to get this “pass” to UK. VFS and British High Commission please be kind to us.

-Luggage packing-in progress, with the only 20kg limit I’m trying my best to reduce the load. Whenever mum asks me to bring more stuffs like Milo (gonna miss it) and winter gloves (she bought me a lot!) I will always tell her the same thing: Only 20kg!!!=S

-Farewell with friends-??-I’m not sure about this; hopefully I can meet all of my dearies before leaving.

-Eat more Malaysian Food! XD..I’ll miss mum’s cooks and those roti canai, nasi lemak etc etc..

-Money money!!-I’m not sure how much JPA will sponsor us before we open an account in UK. Dad did prepare some for me to prevent possible financial crisis.

-Family-Needs no explanation =)

Overall, I’m looking forward to fly to Glasgow to experience a new life. Though I need to be mentally prepared for the coming crazy and hectic timetable, pray hard that all of us can survive through it!

=)

Holiday

Abandoned my simple and boring blog again >.<

It’s been ages since my last post, been through many “processes”.

I have officially end my last semester (sem 5)in IMU!!!!ok it is actually too late to shout the liberty now since I have actually finish end of sem exam in beginning of March. It didn’t give me the feeling that I had finished exam on the last day. Perhaps it was because of the later presentation on following week followed by hospital attachment
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Should I summarize my last semester in IMU?XD..or perhaps I should write something on my study and life after 2.5 years?XD. It will be full of craps
.

Hmm…what can I say..I manage to survive the harder syllabus with gaps of fun times with friends. It was expected that I would be super tension once study week started as I had experienced the same process last semester so I kind of prepare for the worst. =S. It wasn’t good to study in last minute, but somehow I made myself into this bad cycle from sem to sem. Had promised myself to be determined and study constantly since beginning of this semester but in the end it still turned out to be the same. >.<. Therefore I’m really impressed with those friends who can be so self-disciplined.

Felt glad and super relief that I had passed. I know what response I will get from some friends:”Hey you are a JPA scholar and you’ll definitely pass what!”..Nonononono~Maybe I should “declare” myself as the weak one among the brilliant scholars. =S. Sometimes people see me as smart, hardworking and responsible but honestly I think I am not good enough to be described by those, especially when relates with responsibility.>.<

It’s April now. And Elaine is going to fly on JUNE! =).I’m kinda looking forward to go Glasgow and experience the totally new life for 1 year. Meanwhile I spend more time eating many Malaysian food (gaining weight! =.=’’) and spending my time with family. Started to miss my dear friends and sisters (ji mui).

Coming things to settle include getting the CAS letter, applying VISA, filling in the forms, do medical checkup and prepare stuffs needed to put into my large huge luggage bag.=.=.

This post is really messy and I feel that my English’s writing (or perhaps speaking as well?=S) is getting “rusty” and “cacat”.

Happy Holiday =D

All the best and good luck for those having exam soon !