Holiday

Abandoned my simple and boring blog again >.<

It’s been ages since my last post, been through many “processes”.

I have officially end my last semester (sem 5)in IMU!!!!ok it is actually too late to shout the liberty now since I have actually finish end of sem exam in beginning of March. It didn’t give me the feeling that I had finished exam on the last day. Perhaps it was because of the later presentation on following week followed by hospital attachment
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Should I summarize my last semester in IMU?XD..or perhaps I should write something on my study and life after 2.5 years?XD. It will be full of craps
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Hmm…what can I say..I manage to survive the harder syllabus with gaps of fun times with friends. It was expected that I would be super tension once study week started as I had experienced the same process last semester so I kind of prepare for the worst. =S. It wasn’t good to study in last minute, but somehow I made myself into this bad cycle from sem to sem. Had promised myself to be determined and study constantly since beginning of this semester but in the end it still turned out to be the same. >.<. Therefore I’m really impressed with those friends who can be so self-disciplined.

Felt glad and super relief that I had passed. I know what response I will get from some friends:”Hey you are a JPA scholar and you’ll definitely pass what!”..Nonononono~Maybe I should “declare” myself as the weak one among the brilliant scholars. =S. Sometimes people see me as smart, hardworking and responsible but honestly I think I am not good enough to be described by those, especially when relates with responsibility.>.<

It’s April now. And Elaine is going to fly on JUNE! =).I’m kinda looking forward to go Glasgow and experience the totally new life for 1 year. Meanwhile I spend more time eating many Malaysian food (gaining weight! =.=’’) and spending my time with family. Started to miss my dear friends and sisters (ji mui).

Coming things to settle include getting the CAS letter, applying VISA, filling in the forms, do medical checkup and prepare stuffs needed to put into my large huge luggage bag.=.=.

This post is really messy and I feel that my English’s writing (or perhaps speaking as well?=S) is getting “rusty” and “cacat”.

Happy Holiday =D

All the best and good luck for those having exam soon !

倪安東 - Sorry That I Loved You

I can't stop listening to this song again and again now..=(

p/s: I wish I saved all the tears I've cried for you so I could drown you in them

Randomness

I enjoy reading other people blogs (stalking?XD), I enjoy spending time just to read their words of wisdom or happenings in their life..(It sounds a bit sick...=P). One thing which I found heart-touching is how friends can still be connected even when they are far apart from each other, how strong were their bonds. All these do make me continue stalking reading other people's blogs, at least I grab a bite of their views and maybe gain a better image of part of their personalities. Now I realize how plain and boring my blog is compare with others, with glamorous photos and good base of English. If I would be a "stalker" (perhaps I already am?XD) I wouldn't even be interested in reading this blog. Maybe I should be more passionate or enthusiastic in this field?=P

Sometimes I just lost the "feelings" to continue blogging..Lazy blogger..but somehow I feel it's a good way for me to pour out many things especially when emotional periods "attack'.=.=. A symptom of "chronic depression", =P. Promise myself to improve and be better day by day. I'm slow in progress, but maybe I should give a "pat" on my own shoulder telling myself that :" You're improving and keep the spirit."=)

Some persons can just affect my mood easily, no matter how happy was I and how hard I keep focus even during daily conversations. =S..Elaine, you should be more FOCUS. You know you can do better and better everytime..

Suddenly remember something. Wanna write out something for a dear friend whom I had known for more than 10 years--Chooi Lin. Dear, I know things happened recently and how much you had endured and faced. But I also know you will stay strong and put a smile back on your face soon (Glad to know that you are doing better now =)). Although I am always not around, remember a friend (me!) is always here to lend you her ears for all the problems and giving you full support. Like what I have text you, you know my words. Once again deepest condolences to you and your family. *hugs*

You were so right about me when you commented on my note which I've posted on fb. Without people with great personalities like you and other ji mui, a person who is more reserved and self-protective like me wouldn't have bonded so close with you girls. Though we seldom contact each other, every one of us know very well that the bond between us will never break.

Now only I realized that I don't have much photos of us. Nah, here's one which is quite some time ago. Remember to put the smile on the face always. =)

                                                             -the forever buddy-
=)

The End of randomness =P

Happy New Year

It’s almost 2.30am and I’m blogging here..sh*t…

Maybe this will be a simple and short one since I already written a long one in Chinese.

Honestly, I’m very disappointed..of what I’ve got (which is nothing) after I purposely did something . Maybe I should really give up since so many temptations around YOU and your fragility, uncertainty and effortless actions …=(..I should say..I’m just a fool…

It’s towards the end of 2010..I’m here to wish all of my friends and family-HAPPY NEW YEAR in advance. Wishing it early as I probably won’t be this “passionate” to write out something during that time due to the haven’t-finish-revision for coming class tests. Therefore-Happy New Year 2011.=)

A new year, A new life. A brand new start..hopefully.

It’s December

This month seems to be very happening to me. Went to Hatyai (I still wonder why people pronounce as “hap zai”) with family, went Jogoya with the cuties and joined another group for pre-Christmas party. =)

Mentioning about Hatyai trip, the experience was okay, not much of fun but I treat it as a good way to explore and know other country’s life and people. I’m lazy to upload photos here as I have already uploaded some on facebook. Didn’t take much pictures though.

For Jogoya, it was another new experience for me as I never try it before that. Well it is obviously that my stomach’s capacity cannot accommodate the amount of food which I have paid but I was quite excited to try it. Had fun with the pretties there and we snapped a lot of photos. =)

It was the first time I joined eng hui’s group for outing (pre-Christmas party) and it was enjoyable. I haven’t have BBQ for ages and it was fun “burning” the food and just purely talking and joking with those whom I seldom interact. =). Took some alcohol during the party and surprisingly I didn’t develop any rashes or allergic. A good sign for me? =P. Maybe it is just because the alcohol taken was much diluted. I notice that the bottle of the Vodka was same as the one I saw in Yaw Wen’s party, just that the one I took was Mandarin-flavoured. (I’m not alcoholic! XD).

Getting annoyed by my body’s metabolism recently, I feel HUNGRY easily nowadays but once I get some food to feed my stomach I will get full soon (as usual) >.<. This troubles me especially during lectures. I purposely take breakfast before attending classes and still the hunger hunts me. Hated the feeling of hungry and stomach’s drumming (embarrassed >.<).   Still I cannot consume “larger volume” of food for normal meal times with my abnormal metabolism. =/

Should have started my revision (CLASS TESTS coming soon =S) and yet I’m blogging here. The laziness totally infected me today (perhaps already weeks >.<). Elaine! You know the consequences of slacking down and relaxing too much! A note on qian hui’s room: Do not ever give yourself reason to be lazy! But I am tempted to many things and failed to control myself and be motivated. =( This makes me miss my pre-U housemate- Dee as she was so diligent in study and good in motivating me in studies.

2010 is almost ending and I feel like writing something for myself. Maybe another post for it.

Till here then.

A Moment

Let tears wash away my sadness,
Then I'll be tougher to face failures and obstacles.
Let myself drown into sea of tears and swim in it,
Then I'll be united with it and survive in it.

I used to ask myself not to cry as it means weak and not tough at all, but as I'm growing older, I feel better to let my tears down rather than bottle up everything.

teary moments....

I know....

I know I shouldn't, and I know once I started, I will find it hard to stop..it is the Tears..I'm controlling, distracting myself to do some other stuffs (Not STUDYING) so that the rush will fade. =(

I know I shouldn't, TIME passes and yet I haven't recover. I blame myself for being weak and fragile, for being the Emo Queen always. A friend said this type of emo can be considered as chronic. =/

I know I shouldn't, I should have controlled my mind and let go. Sometimes it is just HARD for me to forget. Wish that I can shut down the negative parts. =(

Maybe this will just surprise friends around me as I look more cheerful and "normal" recently. With the jokes and lame around with them, I am "perfectly" fine out there. Yes, I am. When it all comes to myself, NO, I'm not. Sorry I'm babbling like an idiot. Sorry for those who always bear with my sick attitudes. Without you guys, I can't imagine how am I now. Those hanging out and meeting up moments save me from throwing myself into the bad "flash-backs".

I know I shouldn't, shouldn't always portray the "always-emo-annoying-attitude" to people around me (I tend to do this on facebook =/). I know I shouldn't, shouldn't always stuck and rip myself with all the scars and lies. 

Life without YOU IS not easy, but life with YOU WAS too dramatic till I can no longer stand and hold on and even breathe.=''(

Sometimes it is just hard, but thanks to Shin Hui, it is true that those times would be meaningless if life is easy.

Stop babbling...=/